Lesson Twenty One – Dealing With Success

If you manage to make it out of the ghetto, get a good job, find a sugar momma, get some inheritance, or whatever. If you manage to get out its a different world. People who aren’t dying for necessities have an ENTIRELY different set of beliefs, concerns, and perception.

Its like leaving Nazi ruled Europe after defeating Hitler and winning World War 2. And then when you get home there is no war. And furthermore people will never understand what they had to deal with. People just put it out of their minds and try to think about the nice things. They don’t want to relive your horrors when you talk about it. It’s almost as if people act like their never was a war.

People who haven’t lived in hyper violent societies will never understand them. They’ve never had to deal with that. They will think you exaggerate because they can’t fathom that life can be so bad. Their world is cushy and nice and the bad things while bad don’t fall in the same spectrum.

People have to endure all sorts of different things. And someone who has always lived in a nice community with people who don’t suffer and cops that don’t abuse will always have trouble understanding the world we lived in. They don’t know what a crackhead is in real life. They don’t know that someone can get their head bashed in for a bottle of beer that a drunk really wanted. That seems unreasonable to them and therefor impossible.

This is why the problems of the world will always persist. If everyone lived in the same environment we would all work together to make it better. The way it works in the real world though is that different people live in different environments. Its all split up by wealth, race, nation, etc. People on the bottom who suffer won’t ever have that bottom tier of human life “fixed”. It will always be shit. Because the people stuck in it get lost in it. They don’t have the means to change it. And the people who live above it don’t understand it and don’t make it a priority. It’s not something that affects them directly enough.

The most you can hope for is to join a higher tier of society. And you’re going to have to learn to not be so violent. You’re going to have to learn that the world is a different place even though its still earth. You can live ten blocks away from where people are hungry and dying of drug withdrawal and have educated beautiful friends, plenty of food, and a good life. The world is strange like that. But the ultimate goal is to get out of the shit. And then your next goal is dealing with that.

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Lesson Twenty – They don’t care. You shouldnt.

I was listening to an M83 album on youtube and saw a link on the side for a documentary about lion killing. If you don’t know, people pay land owners in Africa pretty sizable amounts of money to just shoot their way through the landscape for a few days. They kill countless animals and large animals. Anything worth a trophy. They’ve deducted that controlled hunting is sustainable. And it is. But its the mentality behind it. That we’re allowed to kill and destroy because we’re human.

Every living thing has DNA or in the case of viruses RNA that has a path all the way back to the original organism. They have managed to be successful passing that DNA through all time. And now humans have pretty systematically changed the face of the earth and eliminated countless organisms. They make no attempt at stopping, only slowing down. The oceans used to be packed with a massively larger quantity and size of fish. Every fisherman will tell you otherwise but that’s why it is the way it is.

Humans in short, aren’t going to last forever. There’s a few archeological grave sites of genocides and cannibalism in Germany that date back as far as seven thousand years ago. In another seven thousand years there will be no one to care or speculate on the horrible things we do in our time. Those people that lived in Herxheim are totally unknown. Their story is totally unknown. And by that their lives and deaths never mattered. Yours is the same. We try so hard to get by and survive and then we die and then we were nothing more than a chain in the link of evolution. To think that you’re more than that is a fabrication to give yourself more worth.

God is questionable. No one can say there is a God, there is no God, give God a name, or give God a purpose. God has never been here. He will never be here. Everyone that tells you otherwise is lying to overcome the insignificance of their lives. Nothing hurts more than to know the finality of death. But no one really knows what comes after death. Odds are, logically, biologically, nothing. But you can’t say for sure.

The point of this post is about motivation. What motivation do we have when everything we could ever do is so futile? When we die there are plenty to take our places and with time all of us are forgotten. Where then do you draw the passion to survive and overcome and become better than our current situation? I cant tell you where to find your motivation. I found mine in passion. No matter how futile this existence is I cant stand to see people get victimized. I can’t stand to see corrupted people in power abusing the masses. I can’t stand that people cycle victimization amongst each other. I have my passion built into me. It makes me who I am. Its the well spring from which I flow. It changes like the surface of the sun but like the sun its always hot. I don’t know where you find yours. Most everyone has no passion. They live and die and are content with being slobs the whole way through. Only special people do. Only those people are able to try to overcome hardship.

Lesson Eighteen – Thugs

Thugs are obvious. They look like crap because they drink and do drugs all day every day and they are wearing socks and flip flops. Odds are they only feel like victimizing crack heads and whatever other people that don’t fight back. They will however try you if they’re drunk and in a group.

They almost ALWAYS have guns on them. If there’s a group there’s literally a 100% chance that one of them has a gun. Its going to be a cheap old 1911 or glock or something but it will probably work and can obviously kill you.

What it comes down to is how much they want from you and their current mood. They’re always looking for an excuse to justify their actions to themselves. They will call you a name or threaten you or someone you know and expect you to say something back. They’ll take your response as a disrespect and then their actions thereafter are “defending their honor” from your disrespect. If there’s a group the rest will jump in and jump you when the leader does. They wont kill you though. They just want to beat you and steal whatever you have.

There’s a ton of possible outcomes. If you say nothing odds are they’ll just disrespect you and let you keep going. That’s not really an option because they’re going to victimize you literally every time they see you after that. They might see that as an invite to robbing you right there because you aren’t going to put up a fight.

You can fight back, if you knock out the alpha one of two things will happen. Either everyone will laugh and cheer and think you’re the greatest thing ever or they’re going to try to jump or shoot you. Either way the alpha will need to regain his dignity and will come back and try to kill you at a later date. If you lose the fight they’re all going to jump you and steal whatever you have on you no matter how worthless.

You can run. They won’t chase you. If they do that’s the perfect time to shoot them. The best course of action would be to run. Make it around a corner and take a defensive position. The first one that comes around the corner light him up with a few center mass shots and he’s literally going to jump out of his shoes like a deer that’s been shot and then go crashing to the ground. Unarmed pursuers will run. They’ll scatter like roaches. Armed pursuers are going to take the opportunity to shoot at you. After you fire the first few shots you’ll want to move again. Keep the same strategy its almost impossible to attack a defensive position without flanking it. So keep conscious of being flanked and their straight on attacks will be met with high losses every time. By defensive position I mean a spot that’s not visible until it’s too late for them. Hidden enough. You should be an incredibly small target behind cover.

If running isn’t an option i.e. they would run much faster than you standing your ground is the only real option. Not provoking further action by insulting or threatening back and continuing to move but not taking your eye off your attackers. Then you simply shoot the ones that don’t run like the wind when it comes to that. If they’re still there when that pop is heard they’re armed and overly confident.

The wonderful thing about street thugs is their lack of combat experience and knowledge. They have no idea how to be defensive. They are all offense. Their defense is in numbers. But you will be able to get them alone plenty. In your neighborhood if there are specific people who are seeking trouble with you you cant just live and let live. You have to get rid of them somehow. Tons of options for this. The easiest options are within the confides of the law. Telling the police where he keeps drugs and guns. They like to raid drug dealers. If he’s too small time for that the next best option is erasure. Their existence is so inconsequential if he disappeared off the face of the planet no one, odds are, would even file a missing person. So many tools, so many options, so many ways to do this that its actually easy. You just have to pick whats most practical. Also leave no links to you. Don’t ask around about the person. Be a total stranger and as much as a suspect as a leaf on a tree.

Lesson Seventeen – He’s walking his cat on a leash. That’s child abuse.

People in the ghetto aren’t inherently stupid. Actually I’m not really sure what I mean by that. They are stupid. They wouldn’t be there forever if they were smart. The people you’re surrounded by are loooooow bred. They typically have no cares about mating with proper humans and it just perpetuates their borderline retardation. Then to add on top of that they drink a ton and do a lot of drugs and usually often from a very early age, preteen typically, which totally ruins their brain development in and of itself. Living in a poor stressful environment and going to shitty schools has plenty of negative effects on brain development without very early drug abuse.

Perfect example and will make sense of the title. I was walking my dog. A cocker spaniel. Very clearly a dog. And a group of youths walked past. I’d say around 14, white, somewhat gothic but gothic has sort of just turned to trashy and ghetto in modern times. One girl, very clearly on drugs, probably alcohol and marijuana says to her friends in shock but in a subdued Thorazine like state that “He’s walking his cat on a leash. That’s child abuse.” Her friends ignore it. And she says again angrily, “That’s child abuse.”

Now you cant get more unintelligent than that. She’s basically smart enough to understand that dogs are supposed to be on leashes not cats and a loosely based concept of abuse. Abuse wouldn’t extend to walking a cat on a leash. Some cats actually like it. Otherwise they’re not going to let you walk them at all. But she isn’t smart enough to understand the difference between a cocker spaniel and a cat. She also isn’t lucid enough to understand the difference between a pet and a human. She also isn’t lucid enough to understand that she’s projecting her feelings of being abused, which hopefully she was, and I mean that in the worst way, onto my dogcat Mosey the cocker spaniel.

The worst of her problems is that she’s abusing drugs and being in public at a very young age. Im sure if she wasn’t already pregnant some meth addicted sex offender did the deed while she was still young. She basically has no chance. And while cute and somewhat healthy at 14 she’ll look 40 when she’s 20 and be dead by 25. Thankfully the universe does have some counter measures to her type.

Lesson Fifteen – Confusing lifestyles

There’s really one major difference between people who succeed in life and people who are just lost in the fray and forgotten. It comes down to who cares. Poor people party a lot. And by party I mean drink, do drugs, stay up late, and live irresponsible lives. And sooner or later they have to clean up their act and sell their body’s for awhile and catch back up on bills. That’s not a joke. Rich people party but its like day parties and they’re a few hours long and it’s more a meet and greet and showing off their shit they’ve accumulated.

There are a lot of people with really weird lifestyles. You’re going to meet girls who are more or less hookers. You’re going to meet men who have very non traditional jobs also. Really those are traditional jobs but not socially acceptable jobs.

Im honestly not real into writing this today. I just wanted to talk about something. One time I saw a girl, very on and off, she was always too busy for me. Turns out she was a hooker. I don’t know if she was just doing massages or whatever but all her friends were hookers so I assume she was too. Most of the time girls who do massages or whatever are hookers too they just get kind of pricey if you want the whole thing. Well I was at her apartment one day. And I found her appointment list. Just being at her apartment while she ignored me was enough for me to crave leaving but I found her list.

The list had about 10 appointments a day. Sometimes more. They were really just phone numbers and a really brief description of the guy. Usually something like “Mike black guy” or “Old gross guy” or “Steve cute”. This was that girl’s job. This was her life. It’s odd to think about really. Because it’s so unusual. She could have gotten a job. She’d do other things like dance at strip clubs from time to time when she needed more money. Her house was full of bongs and pot smoking tools.

It’s weird to think about from a distance. Like this person is a total waste of life. I’m not judging her. I don’t care about the way she lived. I don’t think there’s anything really wrong with prostitution. I say it because she was content with that. Messing with old gross guys was an acceptable life path. She had no higher goals. She had no desire for a furthering education or anything better. Oiling up old gross guys in the hood…That’s life. Mind boggling. I honestly don’t get people. The more I try to understand them the better I do and the deeper I see that life goes.

I don’t know if there was a point to this blog.

Lesson Fourteen – Judge without judging

In retrospect every situation could have gone completely different. Just reaching behind your back to draw your gun can drastically change a situation. Let’s say you’re at the ATM. And some old guy sneaks up on you and starts yelling at you. It’s going to take a second to register what he’s mad about. He’s got a fifth grade education and probably drunk. If you draw and shoot him well you really weren’t in the right there. Yea you were at the ATM and you felt like you were being attacked. But you’ll spend a while in prison for it. If you don’t draw and end him but reach to draw he might draw. Or he might attack to try to stop you. In which case you’ll highly likely be in the right in the eyes of the law. If you do nothing and he yells at you about nothing and turns and walks away and continues yelling about everything and nothing then nothing comes of the situation. In other words your actions are equally as effective in completely changing a situation.

The goal is to always make the right decision. Make multiple wrong decisions and you lose. Don’t over compensate. Don’t make situations worse. Agree with upset people or ignore them. You don’t have the right defend yourself until you are actually defending your physical self. Your ego does not count. Judge the situation without judging the situation. Judgment is usually followed by an action. In the natural world where there is no police state on top of you rejudging the situation action is almost always the best way to deal with things. In the modern world you are forced to wait. You need to wait until the situation turns into the situation that the police state will deem your actions acceptable.

This is dangerous. This highly increases your chance at failure. If you could just blast someone for acting crazy then the good and bad wouldn’t coexist for too long. The bad would be all dead. But the bad are protected by laws. The bad are not judged until they are convicted of something. Many sociopaths and violent criminals coexist with the normal people. The ones that are good thrive. But you have to mind your own business and not be one of the bad. Be bad in a different way. Be the good guy whose worse than any bad guy. That’s the only way to survive.

Lesson Thirteen – Trust

Be mean to people. No one is allowed to borrow anything. Everyone should know that your shit is yours and they risk everything to make it theirs. This isn’t the suburbs. Your neighbor borrowing something really means you giving it to them. Odds are they aren’t even your neighbor they’re just knocking on random doors. Years ago in the old west if you stole anything a band of vigilantes would come and shoot you and then hang you. Your property is everything in harsh environments. They know that. They don’t respect you asking for your stuff. That’s their first mistake.

You’re going to have property stolen. That’s a fact of life. You’re going to leave something somewhere and come back minutes later and it be gone. These people are like seagulls looking for a piece of bread. They’ll hang where you can’t see them and swoop down and be gone in an instant when you turn your back. That’s a fact of life in the ghetto. Anything not bolted down and protected by the business end of a firearm can and will be stolen. You’re going to want to use your neighbors children as clay pigeons because they steal from you but your only real course of action is to let it go. If they’re trying to rob you, i.e. steal from your person, in most states you have the right to defend yourself.

Girls will ask you for drugs after acting like they like you and want to get to know you. Or money. They don’t give a fuck about you. Opiate addicts care about one thing. All drug addicts care about one thing. And unless you are their drug of choice that one thing is not you. Don’t get fooled. You’re never getting borrowed money back. And that’s fine. Don’t give them money. And if you feel like being merciful today and do want to give them something don’t give them enough to make it worth their while to come back. 1-4 dollars. 5 is enough for them to come back. And try to do it in quarters. Something a drug dealer doesn’t want. Helpful but not helpful is your mantra when helping people.

Never ever let someone in a position of power over you. Never let someone in your car or house unless they’re close and you trust them totally. Never give a stranger a ride. He’s going to knife you and steal your car. He doesn’t care about getting far. Always assume everyone is going to try to kill you and steal your shit and get away with it.  You need to always be in the position of power.

Don’t trust anyone. DTA. Live by it. Say it to yourself every time someone wants anything from you. DTA, DTA, DTA, DTA.