Lesson Twenty One – Dealing With Success

If you manage to make it out of the ghetto, get a good job, find a sugar momma, get some inheritance, or whatever. If you manage to get out its a different world. People who aren’t dying for necessities have an ENTIRELY different set of beliefs, concerns, and perception.

Its like leaving Nazi ruled Europe after defeating Hitler and winning World War 2. And then when you get home there is no war. And furthermore people will never understand what they had to deal with. People just put it out of their minds and try to think about the nice things. They don’t want to relive your horrors when you talk about it. It’s almost as if people act like their never was a war.

People who haven’t lived in hyper violent societies will never understand them. They’ve never had to deal with that. They will think you exaggerate because they can’t fathom that life can be so bad. Their world is cushy and nice and the bad things while bad don’t fall in the same spectrum.

People have to endure all sorts of different things. And someone who has always lived in a nice community with people who don’t suffer and cops that don’t abuse will always have trouble understanding the world we lived in. They don’t know what a crackhead is in real life. They don’t know that someone can get their head bashed in for a bottle of beer that a drunk really wanted. That seems unreasonable to them and therefor impossible.

This is why the problems of the world will always persist. If everyone lived in the same environment we would all work together to make it better. The way it works in the real world though is that different people live in different environments. Its all split up by wealth, race, nation, etc. People on the bottom who suffer won’t ever have that bottom tier of human life “fixed”. It will always be shit. Because the people stuck in it get lost in it. They don’t have the means to change it. And the people who live above it don’t understand it and don’t make it a priority. It’s not something that affects them directly enough.

The most you can hope for is to join a higher tier of society. And you’re going to have to learn to not be so violent. You’re going to have to learn that the world is a different place even though its still earth. You can live ten blocks away from where people are hungry and dying of drug withdrawal and have educated beautiful friends, plenty of food, and a good life. The world is strange like that. But the ultimate goal is to get out of the shit. And then your next goal is dealing with that.

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Lesson nineteen – Worthlessness

Being poor you are the disenfranchised. And it’s not just your income that makes you this way. It’s the place you live in, the people you live with, and everything about your situation in life. Rich people are incredibly important. Their lives and deaths affect the world around them. They do you can’t deny it. They have people working for them and people they’re stealing from, and a huge web of interaction with the world around them. You don’t. You have some debt that you owe creditors.

Poor people contribute nothing to society. Sometimes athletes and the intelligent ones (if they’re not killed by an oppressive culture of destroying threats) will rise above and leave. But then of course they’ve left. No one in poor communities contributes anything to anything. If you die someone else just takes your job and is miserable in it for little pay just like you were.

Because of this logical evaluation of people’s worth and the poor being of no value the poor consider themselves and each other to have no value. People can run around in the streets shooting the crap out of each other over minor insults and small sums of money and no one really cares. The killers don’t care, the dead don’t care, the bystanders don’t care. Everyone is just forgotten.

Put yourself in the place of a wealthy young man in a wealthy neighborhood with the mindset of a street thug. He sits on the side of the street in front of a friends house with a, lets say expensive because hes rich, gun on top of the wheel of his car selling…I guess pain killers and psych meds. They’re expensive. That’s not really logical. Why would he undertake so much risk to make relatively small amounts of money. Coming from a wealthy family in a wealthy neighborhood he literally stands to make as much money as his talent and imagination and hard work will make him. If he tried, he’d make good money. If he didn’t try he’d probably get by just fine.

The rest of us, the poor people, see people on the sidewalk selling drugs. Gun nearby, making small amounts of cash, taking a HUGE risk of their personal safety and freedom from jail or prison. You see it everywhere. And it’s not because it pays so well. It pays crap. And it always results in being robbed, shot, killed, put in prison, etc. But in reality that risk is mitigated by their world. They actually don’t have much to lose. Being robbed just means you start back where you did at the beginning of the day. Being killed changes nothing. Being put in prison is no lesser a quality of life.

It’s easy to accept that you’re a loser in a loser world and it will never change. You know you’re a loser and everyone else does but they’re losers too. And then go out and do anything because you have nothing to lose. You can’t be qualitatively more of a loser. A loser is a loser. You cant be a huge loser or a little bit of a loser. You either get what you want and have a good quality of life or you struggle and then die.

In the natural world everything is a loser. Everything gets killed or eaten or dies young. It’s only us humans that have some people who rise above that. In the natural world the apex predators still attack and destroy each other. Humans do too. But they don’t use claws and teeth they try to get more wealth. Which typically doesn’t destroy your peers. It just sets them back a minute while they rob someone else.

There is no getting out of being a loser without hard work. Even with it you probably will fail.

Lesson Twelve – Great Role Models

Aaron Hernandez. He’s a great role model. There are a ton of great role models like him too. Prison is full of them. They didn’t take shit and they killed without any regards to the consequences. They didn’t let people disrespect them and those people are dead. I’m being sarcastic. They are great role models but role models of what not to be like. Sometimes you have to see people fail at things to know how to win. The human mind is pretty powerful at foresight and visualization. If you can see yourself following the paths of someone that failed you know how not to be. And that’s a start in a world where success is so shrouded with mystery by those who don’t have it.

You can deduct that not acting like Aaron Hernandez is a great way to stay out of prison. While he managed to get into the NFL he blew it. He lost more and at a very young age than most everyone could ever gain. Why? He took the wrong path. The path of offense. The path of ignorance. He followed every modern gangster’s mantra and he did so very well. He lost everything because of it. He didn’t know how to have humility. Someone spilled a drink on him and it turned into a double homicide. Someone else knew of the double homicide and it turned into triple homicide. That then turned into dying in a prison. And being buried in a prison graveyard. He couldn’t keep his eye on the prize he was too proud and too well into the mantra’s of hood rats.

There are no real role models that come out of the ghetto. It’s a very somber realization. It’s a slow violin playing in the background. It’s sad. No one that grows up or lives in this environment ever becomes someone you want to be. They always have that stigma and that fear and hate and tactical mind. They can never relax and be someone else. They can never be someone that had plenty and lived in beautiful places with well adjusted people and nothing but opportunity. They might currently live in the land of plenty. But there will always be that part of them. It’s like taking a tiger out of the jungle. The jungle will never leave him. A veteran out of war. The war is still there.

You can’t look to anyone who rose above. Not me or anyone. Not any athlete or any CEO or any successful person that came from nothing but pain and hate. You can never look to someone that learned how to feel invincible because they had absolutely nothing to lose. Someone that craved death because it was a release from the shit. You have to look to people who never had to live that life. Because they’re the goal. And not so much for you but your kids. And the future generations of people that walk this earth. No one should have to go through all the things we have. No one deserves it. We all come into this world innocent of everything. Totally ready to be shaped to our world. And no one deserves to be treated so poorly and have so little in a world that offers so little opportunity.

We learned how to be invincible and we learned how to be cold to everything and become capable of any horrors. For some reason once you have that you know you can never let it go. It’s impossible to let go…just in case you ever need it again. It would be nice to live in a world where no one has to have that. But you can’t look to people who have that. You have to look to people who don’t. They might seem weak or ignorant but their quality of life is so much better than ours. Ignorance is bliss.

Lesson Ten – The Police

Police are not your friend. Never ever call them or have anything to do with them unless absolutely necessary. The only viable situation in which to call police is to prevent the death or kidnapping of you or someone you care about. If they are already dead or kidnapped, the police are no longer of value. That’s IT. Your involvement with the police ENDS THERE. NO EXCEPTIONS. Do not call the police for petty crimes. Do not report crimes unless you can do so absolutely and totally anonymously. And only in situations in which the police can catch people in the act and don’t need your testimony.

A man who fights dragons too much eventually becomes a dragon. A man who stares into the abyss long enough eventually becomes the abyss. No that’s not my original quote its Neitzsche. A cop who fights criminals for long enough becomes a criminal. A cop who stares into the evils of the world for long enough eventually becomes the evils of the world. Cops deal with the worst people day in an day out. Drug abusers, thieves, psychotically violent people, child abusers, and people who break traffic laws and don’t care and people who live off law breaking, etc. They deal with angry drunks and people with a non functional level of intelligence…just everyone. That crap rubs off on them.

Cops also have unchecked power. Only recently have cops started being charged with things like murder and manslaughter. And that’s only because they’ve been so abusive and terroristic that people want cameras put on them. And people know you can film an arrest and get a good viral video because after the cops put someone in handcuffs they’re going to tase and kick and punch the person. Its just what they do, its so consistent that they’ll break the law you can catch them easy. They make the news constantly all over the country with viral videos of them beating and shooting and abusing the living shit out of people. They do it so much that people expect it. Which is by definition terrorism.

Cops don’t care. They just don’t. They don’t give a fuck about you or your situation or anything. If they pull you over for a traffic violation killing you crosses their minds many times. They are very weary of people who pull guns on them or get violent. They expect it in every situation. That mindset of kill or be killed weighs on them big time. Eventually they will kill someone. And not totally unjustified. The people they kill are usually total scumbags. But they don’t often do it in self defense. They love to take out that frustration and anger and stress on people. In their minds the people deserve it. And typically they do. But deserving something and upholding laws conflict and the laws should always win. But they don’t. And just because the cop is dealing with you they typically assume that you’re the same scumbag that they always have to deal with. Even if you aren’t.

Not all cops are bad. Some genuinely care about their communities and don’t want to help contribute to a society of violence. But the road to hell is paved with good intentions. Even the good ones are humans with guns and power and a job that makes them immune to the law in a huge amount of situations. Cops came to my door with guns drawn and when I opened the door they pulled me out with a gun literally in my face and arrested me. They then went through my house and seized my property. Cops can do this. If they have a warrant. These cops didn’t. To the rest of us that’s aggravated assault, kidnapping, armed robbery and a breaking and entering. There was no way on earth a judge would have granted them a warrant based on the ramblings of a schizophrenic person. So they took it upon themselves.  And that’s cops. And that’s why you avoid them.

There’s no way you can win against cops. If they want you for anything there’s no getting away or convincing them that you’re not guilty or anything. The only thing you should ever say to an officer is “I plead the fifth”. Officers want your blood. And you’re giving it to them when you talk about situations. If you’re just getting a ticket you keep your hands on the wheel and say “Yes, sir” when he tells you you’re either getting a ticket or a warning. Never be condescending, never argue, never do anything. They are looking for an excuse. I’ve had a cop harass me for maybe 15 minutes, Im absolutely sure he wanted to see if he could piss me off and either shoot me or charge me with more crimes than an expired plate. He was very clearly fishing for more. An expired plate is nothing. In the great scheme of things it hurts no one, it does nothing, its just a fee that hasn’t been paid. Something like a ticket is the only reasonable response to something like an unpaid fee. To be screamed at and harassed and threatened is not reasonable. But…this is the police.

They are always looking for more. Petty crimes are petty crimes. They want someone to shoot. Someone to hit. Someone to drive their knee into while they are on the ground. They want that release. It makes them violent and dangerous and criminals. Like I said though there’s no way you can win against them. There are more of them than you. They have the best lawyers. The get an insane amount of preferential treatment by judges and jurors. No matter what you do they will always be human. They will always have to deal with horrible people and they will always become horrible people themselves. Avoiding them is the only successful strategy.

Lesson Nine – Ghetto Exhaustion

If you’re just visiting the ghetto then you might not experience this. But if you live there you will. Living in a shitty high crime poverty stricken community is stressful. It takes it’s toll. It turns you into something else. It has a lot of effects on you as a whole. The highest would be fear, second would maybe be hunger. Or maybe the other way around. I don’t really know. It depends on you and the situation.

In order to not feel so exhausted sometimes you need to find somewhere else to spend your time. Typically you can’t afford to go to Italy and summer there so you have to stay in the ghetto and get your vacation. The easiest way is segregation. No not separating races. But separating yourself from the world around you. Staying indoors. Staying at a friends house. Getting lost in video games or a book. Staying at your girlfriends place. Pack your shit up and go over there.

My way was video games. Eventually they too become exhausting because you’re so hungry and broke and you spend a lot of time sleeping but at least I didn’t care about the world outside. Girls will do it too. Stay at their houses. Girl’s often travel to stay with boyfriends but if they live in a nice area and you live in the hood maybe you should go over there. Bring your dog, spend the night. Get away from it.

Sometimes the weight of the world will be too much for you to bare. Probably actually a lot in life. And you want to do crazy things to get it off. Like kill or be killed. Rob and steal and lash out at the world around you. Make it big or die. I think it was 50 Cent who had the song about getting rich or die trying. You better believe that stuck in the hood. Life is barely worth living. Lots of days it simply isn’t. You’re going to feel like you have nothing to lose a lot. That you can only go up. That any action no matter how absurd or violent or risky only stands to benefit you. Let those feelings subside. Make bigger goals. It’s better to be broke and free than rich and in prison.

Lesson Eight – The people around you.

There’s no way you can write or catalog people that live in the hood without being incredibly racist sounding. Well its a scientifically proven fact that everyone is racist in the sense that we all have preferential logic towards our own race. So you’re racist. Im racist. Wait…are we using this word correctly? I don’t care about people that I don’t care about. If you’re not in my circle of friends and family I simply do not give a fuck about you. It definitely does not matter what your race is. So now that we’ve cleared that up, lets discuss.

“Thug” kids. These are the most dangerous, dumbest, worst people on the planet. Highly and I mean so incredibly highly susceptible to any type of affectation the media that they’re exposed to impresses upon them. They listen to music, watch shows, and hang out with people that want to be a certain way. This “thug” way. So they too want to be “thugs” and typically because in their lives they are exposed to NOTHING else this sticks so hard to them. No one ever asked them what they wanted to be when they grew up. No one ever cared about a career path and long term life plan for them and they didn’t even make it through high school. The only way to deal with this type of person is just to avoid them. Let them keep to themselves and the police. Every human seeks ways to be special and unique. And if this is the only way ever presented to them, while not special or unique, it’s a way of being something, they stick to it like a rat in a glue trap.

Drug abusers. These make up a very high percentage of people living in the ghetto. There are two classes. Functional and non functional. Functional can have jobs, even if for a little bit. Non functional typically cant hold jobs more than a day, if that, and find other way of making money or just getting drugs like theft. Theft is so huge. Theft of retailers like Best Buy or Wal-Mart pays for drug addiction in this country. If you don’t believe me you just don’t know any better. They steal. They steal so much so often and from so many different places that they can pay for drugs. They get cents on the dollar for what they steal and they can afford drugs. Drugs are cheap. If they steal a $200 GPS they can sell it super easy for $20-30 dollars. That buys a relatively small amount of drugs that will last them the day. Functional drug users, typically just alcoholics fit into this category, work for a living. You will be asked outright many times living in the ghetto if you have or know anyone that can get X or Y drugs by complete strangers. That’s normal. Just say, “No, sorry.”

Normal people. It’s hard to find normal people in the ghetto. If you do they’re typically just in a bad way. Or they never really cared about making money and having careers and were happy just doing whatever. There’s not really much to say about them. Other than that many people will seem normal and when you get to know them they fit into the drug abuser category.

Sex traders. Girls who sell sex and men who sell sex are highly dangerous. They have AIDS. They might not actually have AIDS. But assume they do. Don’t give in. Just keep telling yourself this person has deadly STD’s. Something like 1 in 5 men in this country who have sex with other men have HIV. And more than half of them don’t know it. Those are just men who have sex with men. That’s not even prostitutes. A gay prostitute absolutely has HIV or AIDS.

I can’t think of anyone else right now. That kind of fits everyone.

Lesson seven – Gun choices

If you live in the hood and you don’t have a gun you’re risking everything. Odds are if you have followed my rules you should be fine and never have to use it. If you present yourself as having nothing you should be fine. Typically people rob people like drug dealers because they have drugs and cash. They get robbed a ton.

Really its all about functionality versus cost. Its great if you have a concealed weapons permit and can carry a small pistol. Its great if you can afford all that. At the very least it will give you peace of mind.

In order to be robbed you must have something someone wants. If you’re in dirty work clothes you clearly have nothing anyone wants. They would assume you are as broke as them. Typically people need a very specific goal. I.e. so and so has 8lbs of marijuana an a few thousand in cash. That would make so and so a great target. They know exactly what he has, the risk/reward chart is super clear. They are incredibly unlikely to look at you and say oh he might have 1-50 dollars on him, might, and some maxed out credit cards, well Im gonna rob him anyways. That’s pretty much not going to happen. It can though if someone is desperate enough.

As far as gun choices its all about cost and functionality. There’s a movie and in it a guy who is a very serious gun enthusiast and he’s picked out the best gun through an obvious ton of research and he gloats and makes fun of everyone else’s weapons. He gets a gun drawn on him, some compact little foreign piece of crap, and talks some trash about it and draws his own gun. And talks about how great that is. Then the character with the crappy gun just shoots him a few times and he dies. By the crappy gun.

Point of the story is that it just has to shoot a bullet. A cheap 150 dollar used 9mm that works fine and an expensive 1200 dollar brand new .45 work the same. It’s just whoever shoots the other person first. It’s not warfare. It’s not long drawn out battles in which things like long range and long term use make a massive difference. It’s literally shooting someone at a very close range and getting away. People who don’t engage in combat don’t realize that the small nuances of a gun that make it special typically don’t matter. It’s about luck, speed, and the user’s proficiency. Something that draws quick, reliable, and 9mm or bigger…its very simple.

For everything else its all about small AR’s. The m4, the ar15, the ak47, the M1 carbine, etc. Short light and a good bullet. Solid weapons for every occasion and large magazine size. Very simple. Its very easy to get lost in the world of gun preferences. You can do research day and night. Its not going to save you if you don’t hear someone sneak up on you and shoot you in the back. The only thing that will save you is awareness and speed. Even then you face the legal issues of using a gun. If you got a little over zealous you’re quite fucked. It’s a last resort thing. You just have to try to pay attention to the situation.