Lesson Twenty – They don’t care. You shouldnt.

I was listening to an M83 album on youtube and saw a link on the side for a documentary about lion killing. If you don’t know, people pay land owners in Africa pretty sizable amounts of money to just shoot their way through the landscape for a few days. They kill countless animals and large animals. Anything worth a trophy. They’ve deducted that controlled hunting is sustainable. And it is. But its the mentality behind it. That we’re allowed to kill and destroy because we’re human.

Every living thing has DNA or in the case of viruses RNA that has a path all the way back to the original organism. They have managed to be successful passing that DNA through all time. And now humans have pretty systematically changed the face of the earth and eliminated countless organisms. They make no attempt at stopping, only slowing down. The oceans used to be packed with a massively larger quantity and size of fish. Every fisherman will tell you otherwise but that’s why it is the way it is.

Humans in short, aren’t going to last forever. There’s a few archeological grave sites of genocides and cannibalism in Germany that date back as far as seven thousand years ago. In another seven thousand years there will be no one to care or speculate on the horrible things we do in our time. Those people that lived in Herxheim are totally unknown. Their story is totally unknown. And by that their lives and deaths never mattered. Yours is the same. We try so hard to get by and survive and then we die and then we were nothing more than a chain in the link of evolution. To think that you’re more than that is a fabrication to give yourself more worth.

God is questionable. No one can say there is a God, there is no God, give God a name, or give God a purpose. God has never been here. He will never be here. Everyone that tells you otherwise is lying to overcome the insignificance of their lives. Nothing hurts more than to know the finality of death. But no one really knows what comes after death. Odds are, logically, biologically, nothing. But you can’t say for sure.

The point of this post is about motivation. What motivation do we have when everything we could ever do is so futile? When we die there are plenty to take our places and with time all of us are forgotten. Where then do you draw the passion to survive and overcome and become better than our current situation? I cant tell you where to find your motivation. I found mine in passion. No matter how futile this existence is I cant stand to see people get victimized. I can’t stand to see corrupted people in power abusing the masses. I can’t stand that people cycle victimization amongst each other. I have my passion built into me. It makes me who I am. Its the well spring from which I flow. It changes like the surface of the sun but like the sun its always hot. I don’t know where you find yours. Most everyone has no passion. They live and die and are content with being slobs the whole way through. Only special people do. Only those people are able to try to overcome hardship.

Lesson Eighteen – Thugs

Thugs are obvious. They look like crap because they drink and do drugs all day every day and they are wearing socks and flip flops. Odds are they only feel like victimizing crack heads and whatever other people that don’t fight back. They will however try you if they’re drunk and in a group.

They almost ALWAYS have guns on them. If there’s a group there’s literally a 100% chance that one of them has a gun. Its going to be a cheap old 1911 or glock or something but it will probably work and can obviously kill you.

What it comes down to is how much they want from you and their current mood. They’re always looking for an excuse to justify their actions to themselves. They will call you a name or threaten you or someone you know and expect you to say something back. They’ll take your response as a disrespect and then their actions thereafter are “defending their honor” from your disrespect. If there’s a group the rest will jump in and jump you when the leader does. They wont kill you though. They just want to beat you and steal whatever you have.

There’s a ton of possible outcomes. If you say nothing odds are they’ll just disrespect you and let you keep going. That’s not really an option because they’re going to victimize you literally every time they see you after that. They might see that as an invite to robbing you right there because you aren’t going to put up a fight.

You can fight back, if you knock out the alpha one of two things will happen. Either everyone will laugh and cheer and think you’re the greatest thing ever or they’re going to try to jump or shoot you. Either way the alpha will need to regain his dignity and will come back and try to kill you at a later date. If you lose the fight they’re all going to jump you and steal whatever you have on you no matter how worthless.

You can run. They won’t chase you. If they do that’s the perfect time to shoot them. The best course of action would be to run. Make it around a corner and take a defensive position. The first one that comes around the corner light him up with a few center mass shots and he’s literally going to jump out of his shoes like a deer that’s been shot and then go crashing to the ground. Unarmed pursuers will run. They’ll scatter like roaches. Armed pursuers are going to take the opportunity to shoot at you. After you fire the first few shots you’ll want to move again. Keep the same strategy its almost impossible to attack a defensive position without flanking it. So keep conscious of being flanked and their straight on attacks will be met with high losses every time. By defensive position I mean a spot that’s not visible until it’s too late for them. Hidden enough. You should be an incredibly small target behind cover.

If running isn’t an option i.e. they would run much faster than you standing your ground is the only real option. Not provoking further action by insulting or threatening back and continuing to move but not taking your eye off your attackers. Then you simply shoot the ones that don’t run like the wind when it comes to that. If they’re still there when that pop is heard they’re armed and overly confident.

The wonderful thing about street thugs is their lack of combat experience and knowledge. They have no idea how to be defensive. They are all offense. Their defense is in numbers. But you will be able to get them alone plenty. In your neighborhood if there are specific people who are seeking trouble with you you cant just live and let live. You have to get rid of them somehow. Tons of options for this. The easiest options are within the confides of the law. Telling the police where he keeps drugs and guns. They like to raid drug dealers. If he’s too small time for that the next best option is erasure. Their existence is so inconsequential if he disappeared off the face of the planet no one, odds are, would even file a missing person. So many tools, so many options, so many ways to do this that its actually easy. You just have to pick whats most practical. Also leave no links to you. Don’t ask around about the person. Be a total stranger and as much as a suspect as a leaf on a tree.

Lesson Fourteen – Judge without judging

In retrospect every situation could have gone completely different. Just reaching behind your back to draw your gun can drastically change a situation. Let’s say you’re at the ATM. And some old guy sneaks up on you and starts yelling at you. It’s going to take a second to register what he’s mad about. He’s got a fifth grade education and probably drunk. If you draw and shoot him well you really weren’t in the right there. Yea you were at the ATM and you felt like you were being attacked. But you’ll spend a while in prison for it. If you don’t draw and end him but reach to draw he might draw. Or he might attack to try to stop you. In which case you’ll highly likely be in the right in the eyes of the law. If you do nothing and he yells at you about nothing and turns and walks away and continues yelling about everything and nothing then nothing comes of the situation. In other words your actions are equally as effective in completely changing a situation.

The goal is to always make the right decision. Make multiple wrong decisions and you lose. Don’t over compensate. Don’t make situations worse. Agree with upset people or ignore them. You don’t have the right defend yourself until you are actually defending your physical self. Your ego does not count. Judge the situation without judging the situation. Judgment is usually followed by an action. In the natural world where there is no police state on top of you rejudging the situation action is almost always the best way to deal with things. In the modern world you are forced to wait. You need to wait until the situation turns into the situation that the police state will deem your actions acceptable.

This is dangerous. This highly increases your chance at failure. If you could just blast someone for acting crazy then the good and bad wouldn’t coexist for too long. The bad would be all dead. But the bad are protected by laws. The bad are not judged until they are convicted of something. Many sociopaths and violent criminals coexist with the normal people. The ones that are good thrive. But you have to mind your own business and not be one of the bad. Be bad in a different way. Be the good guy whose worse than any bad guy. That’s the only way to survive.

Lesson Eleven – Credit

It’s very easy to get some credit in this country. If you have a job and a decent or empty credit history you can get some credit. Which is great. Its important to be able to have some money that simply isn’t yours that you can use in emergencies. Wealthy people have awesome credit cards and awesome credit rates. Credit companies basically pay them to use their credit cards. The reason is the desire for their business vs. the competition. They have to offer great deals and offer high credit lines and incredibly low interest rates. They will profit off the wealthy person, albeit not a ton, but they’ll make some money in the end.

Most Americans get terrible rates on credit cards. Because most Americans owe on credit cards. They cant pay them off, and when they do they typically owe money again almost immediately after. Credit companies make a ton of money off the average Joe. They don’t offer great deals they offer decent deals and at best a crappy interest.

You get the absolute worst deals. You get absolutely no incentives and very high interest rates. This should deter low income people from ever using credit.  The problem being is that most low income people don’t make enough money to survive. We rely on unreliable income and even get that in small amounts. If we want to buy our kids birthday presents or take them to Chuck E Cheese or whatever we typically have to put that on credit. Really anything not food and rent goes to credit. And we can never pay it off because we’re never making more money. Either the same money or less. Credit card companies LOVE this. They make so much money in the end. We pay more interest by a huge margin than money borrowed by the ends of our lives. Its a scam. And it helps keep the rich rich and the poor poor.

Again this goes to the entire mantra of staying alive in the ghetto. You, being an American, think, “Something should be done about that.” Yea absolutely. It’s hurting a ton of people and contributes to a below par lifestyle for a ton of people. But there are no champions of the poor. Poor people don’t vote. Even if they did no presidential nominee would ever combat real issues in this country. They make up issues like gay marriage that have no real intrinsic bearing on anything and use vague words like “Hope” to not tackle this stuff.

The only way to survive the ghetto is the same way you survive the desert. You accept that you are not in control of the environment and have absolutely no bearing in “the way things should be.” You just have to stick to your goals of staying fed and hydrated and getting the hell out of there. Learn humility, learn how things work, and make critical decisions. Don’t waste a minute or a dollar trying to change things. Don’t forget why you live in the ghetto in the first place. You have no value therefor your voice and opinion has no value. Accept it, own it, move on.

Lesson Ten – The Police

Police are not your friend. Never ever call them or have anything to do with them unless absolutely necessary. The only viable situation in which to call police is to prevent the death or kidnapping of you or someone you care about. If they are already dead or kidnapped, the police are no longer of value. That’s IT. Your involvement with the police ENDS THERE. NO EXCEPTIONS. Do not call the police for petty crimes. Do not report crimes unless you can do so absolutely and totally anonymously. And only in situations in which the police can catch people in the act and don’t need your testimony.

A man who fights dragons too much eventually becomes a dragon. A man who stares into the abyss long enough eventually becomes the abyss. No that’s not my original quote its Neitzsche. A cop who fights criminals for long enough becomes a criminal. A cop who stares into the evils of the world for long enough eventually becomes the evils of the world. Cops deal with the worst people day in an day out. Drug abusers, thieves, psychotically violent people, child abusers, and people who break traffic laws and don’t care and people who live off law breaking, etc. They deal with angry drunks and people with a non functional level of intelligence…just everyone. That crap rubs off on them.

Cops also have unchecked power. Only recently have cops started being charged with things like murder and manslaughter. And that’s only because they’ve been so abusive and terroristic that people want cameras put on them. And people know you can film an arrest and get a good viral video because after the cops put someone in handcuffs they’re going to tase and kick and punch the person. Its just what they do, its so consistent that they’ll break the law you can catch them easy. They make the news constantly all over the country with viral videos of them beating and shooting and abusing the living shit out of people. They do it so much that people expect it. Which is by definition terrorism.

Cops don’t care. They just don’t. They don’t give a fuck about you or your situation or anything. If they pull you over for a traffic violation killing you crosses their minds many times. They are very weary of people who pull guns on them or get violent. They expect it in every situation. That mindset of kill or be killed weighs on them big time. Eventually they will kill someone. And not totally unjustified. The people they kill are usually total scumbags. But they don’t often do it in self defense. They love to take out that frustration and anger and stress on people. In their minds the people deserve it. And typically they do. But deserving something and upholding laws conflict and the laws should always win. But they don’t. And just because the cop is dealing with you they typically assume that you’re the same scumbag that they always have to deal with. Even if you aren’t.

Not all cops are bad. Some genuinely care about their communities and don’t want to help contribute to a society of violence. But the road to hell is paved with good intentions. Even the good ones are humans with guns and power and a job that makes them immune to the law in a huge amount of situations. Cops came to my door with guns drawn and when I opened the door they pulled me out with a gun literally in my face and arrested me. They then went through my house and seized my property. Cops can do this. If they have a warrant. These cops didn’t. To the rest of us that’s aggravated assault, kidnapping, armed robbery and a breaking and entering. There was no way on earth a judge would have granted them a warrant based on the ramblings of a schizophrenic person. So they took it upon themselves.  And that’s cops. And that’s why you avoid them.

There’s no way you can win against cops. If they want you for anything there’s no getting away or convincing them that you’re not guilty or anything. The only thing you should ever say to an officer is “I plead the fifth”. Officers want your blood. And you’re giving it to them when you talk about situations. If you’re just getting a ticket you keep your hands on the wheel and say “Yes, sir” when he tells you you’re either getting a ticket or a warning. Never be condescending, never argue, never do anything. They are looking for an excuse. I’ve had a cop harass me for maybe 15 minutes, Im absolutely sure he wanted to see if he could piss me off and either shoot me or charge me with more crimes than an expired plate. He was very clearly fishing for more. An expired plate is nothing. In the great scheme of things it hurts no one, it does nothing, its just a fee that hasn’t been paid. Something like a ticket is the only reasonable response to something like an unpaid fee. To be screamed at and harassed and threatened is not reasonable. But…this is the police.

They are always looking for more. Petty crimes are petty crimes. They want someone to shoot. Someone to hit. Someone to drive their knee into while they are on the ground. They want that release. It makes them violent and dangerous and criminals. Like I said though there’s no way you can win against them. There are more of them than you. They have the best lawyers. The get an insane amount of preferential treatment by judges and jurors. No matter what you do they will always be human. They will always have to deal with horrible people and they will always become horrible people themselves. Avoiding them is the only successful strategy.

Lesson Nine – Ghetto Exhaustion

If you’re just visiting the ghetto then you might not experience this. But if you live there you will. Living in a shitty high crime poverty stricken community is stressful. It takes it’s toll. It turns you into something else. It has a lot of effects on you as a whole. The highest would be fear, second would maybe be hunger. Or maybe the other way around. I don’t really know. It depends on you and the situation.

In order to not feel so exhausted sometimes you need to find somewhere else to spend your time. Typically you can’t afford to go to Italy and summer there so you have to stay in the ghetto and get your vacation. The easiest way is segregation. No not separating races. But separating yourself from the world around you. Staying indoors. Staying at a friends house. Getting lost in video games or a book. Staying at your girlfriends place. Pack your shit up and go over there.

My way was video games. Eventually they too become exhausting because you’re so hungry and broke and you spend a lot of time sleeping but at least I didn’t care about the world outside. Girls will do it too. Stay at their houses. Girl’s often travel to stay with boyfriends but if they live in a nice area and you live in the hood maybe you should go over there. Bring your dog, spend the night. Get away from it.

Sometimes the weight of the world will be too much for you to bare. Probably actually a lot in life. And you want to do crazy things to get it off. Like kill or be killed. Rob and steal and lash out at the world around you. Make it big or die. I think it was 50 Cent who had the song about getting rich or die trying. You better believe that stuck in the hood. Life is barely worth living. Lots of days it simply isn’t. You’re going to feel like you have nothing to lose a lot. That you can only go up. That any action no matter how absurd or violent or risky only stands to benefit you. Let those feelings subside. Make bigger goals. It’s better to be broke and free than rich and in prison.

Lesson Eight – The people around you.

There’s no way you can write or catalog people that live in the hood without being incredibly racist sounding. Well its a scientifically proven fact that everyone is racist in the sense that we all have preferential logic towards our own race. So you’re racist. Im racist. Wait…are we using this word correctly? I don’t care about people that I don’t care about. If you’re not in my circle of friends and family I simply do not give a fuck about you. It definitely does not matter what your race is. So now that we’ve cleared that up, lets discuss.

“Thug” kids. These are the most dangerous, dumbest, worst people on the planet. Highly and I mean so incredibly highly susceptible to any type of affectation the media that they’re exposed to impresses upon them. They listen to music, watch shows, and hang out with people that want to be a certain way. This “thug” way. So they too want to be “thugs” and typically because in their lives they are exposed to NOTHING else this sticks so hard to them. No one ever asked them what they wanted to be when they grew up. No one ever cared about a career path and long term life plan for them and they didn’t even make it through high school. The only way to deal with this type of person is just to avoid them. Let them keep to themselves and the police. Every human seeks ways to be special and unique. And if this is the only way ever presented to them, while not special or unique, it’s a way of being something, they stick to it like a rat in a glue trap.

Drug abusers. These make up a very high percentage of people living in the ghetto. There are two classes. Functional and non functional. Functional can have jobs, even if for a little bit. Non functional typically cant hold jobs more than a day, if that, and find other way of making money or just getting drugs like theft. Theft is so huge. Theft of retailers like Best Buy or Wal-Mart pays for drug addiction in this country. If you don’t believe me you just don’t know any better. They steal. They steal so much so often and from so many different places that they can pay for drugs. They get cents on the dollar for what they steal and they can afford drugs. Drugs are cheap. If they steal a $200 GPS they can sell it super easy for $20-30 dollars. That buys a relatively small amount of drugs that will last them the day. Functional drug users, typically just alcoholics fit into this category, work for a living. You will be asked outright many times living in the ghetto if you have or know anyone that can get X or Y drugs by complete strangers. That’s normal. Just say, “No, sorry.”

Normal people. It’s hard to find normal people in the ghetto. If you do they’re typically just in a bad way. Or they never really cared about making money and having careers and were happy just doing whatever. There’s not really much to say about them. Other than that many people will seem normal and when you get to know them they fit into the drug abuser category.

Sex traders. Girls who sell sex and men who sell sex are highly dangerous. They have AIDS. They might not actually have AIDS. But assume they do. Don’t give in. Just keep telling yourself this person has deadly STD’s. Something like 1 in 5 men in this country who have sex with other men have HIV. And more than half of them don’t know it. Those are just men who have sex with men. That’s not even prostitutes. A gay prostitute absolutely has HIV or AIDS.

I can’t think of anyone else right now. That kind of fits everyone.