Lesson Twenty One – Dealing With Success

If you manage to make it out of the ghetto, get a good job, find a sugar momma, get some inheritance, or whatever. If you manage to get out its a different world. People who aren’t dying for necessities have an ENTIRELY different set of beliefs, concerns, and perception.

Its like leaving Nazi ruled Europe after defeating Hitler and winning World War 2. And then when you get home there is no war. And furthermore people will never understand what they had to deal with. People just put it out of their minds and try to think about the nice things. They don’t want to relive your horrors when you talk about it. It’s almost as if people act like their never was a war.

People who haven’t lived in hyper violent societies will never understand them. They’ve never had to deal with that. They will think you exaggerate because they can’t fathom that life can be so bad. Their world is cushy and nice and the bad things while bad don’t fall in the same spectrum.

People have to endure all sorts of different things. And someone who has always lived in a nice community with people who don’t suffer and cops that don’t abuse will always have trouble understanding the world we lived in. They don’t know what a crackhead is in real life. They don’t know that someone can get their head bashed in for a bottle of beer that a drunk really wanted. That seems unreasonable to them and therefor impossible.

This is why the problems of the world will always persist. If everyone lived in the same environment we would all work together to make it better. The way it works in the real world though is that different people live in different environments. Its all split up by wealth, race, nation, etc. People on the bottom who suffer won’t ever have that bottom tier of human life “fixed”. It will always be shit. Because the people stuck in it get lost in it. They don’t have the means to change it. And the people who live above it don’t understand it and don’t make it a priority. It’s not something that affects them directly enough.

The most you can hope for is to join a higher tier of society. And you’re going to have to learn to not be so violent. You’re going to have to learn that the world is a different place even though its still earth. You can live ten blocks away from where people are hungry and dying of drug withdrawal and have educated beautiful friends, plenty of food, and a good life. The world is strange like that. But the ultimate goal is to get out of the shit. And then your next goal is dealing with that.

Lesson Twenty – They don’t care. You shouldnt.

I was listening to an M83 album on youtube and saw a link on the side for a documentary about lion killing. If you don’t know, people pay land owners in Africa pretty sizable amounts of money to just shoot their way through the landscape for a few days. They kill countless animals and large animals. Anything worth a trophy. They’ve deducted that controlled hunting is sustainable. And it is. But its the mentality behind it. That we’re allowed to kill and destroy because we’re human.

Every living thing has DNA or in the case of viruses RNA that has a path all the way back to the original organism. They have managed to be successful passing that DNA through all time. And now humans have pretty systematically changed the face of the earth and eliminated countless organisms. They make no attempt at stopping, only slowing down. The oceans used to be packed with a massively larger quantity and size of fish. Every fisherman will tell you otherwise but that’s why it is the way it is.

Humans in short, aren’t going to last forever. There’s a few archeological grave sites of genocides and cannibalism in Germany that date back as far as seven thousand years ago. In another seven thousand years there will be no one to care or speculate on the horrible things we do in our time. Those people that lived in Herxheim are totally unknown. Their story is totally unknown. And by that their lives and deaths never mattered. Yours is the same. We try so hard to get by and survive and then we die and then we were nothing more than a chain in the link of evolution. To think that you’re more than that is a fabrication to give yourself more worth.

God is questionable. No one can say there is a God, there is no God, give God a name, or give God a purpose. God has never been here. He will never be here. Everyone that tells you otherwise is lying to overcome the insignificance of their lives. Nothing hurts more than to know the finality of death. But no one really knows what comes after death. Odds are, logically, biologically, nothing. But you can’t say for sure.

The point of this post is about motivation. What motivation do we have when everything we could ever do is so futile? When we die there are plenty to take our places and with time all of us are forgotten. Where then do you draw the passion to survive and overcome and become better than our current situation? I cant tell you where to find your motivation. I found mine in passion. No matter how futile this existence is I cant stand to see people get victimized. I can’t stand to see corrupted people in power abusing the masses. I can’t stand that people cycle victimization amongst each other. I have my passion built into me. It makes me who I am. Its the well spring from which I flow. It changes like the surface of the sun but like the sun its always hot. I don’t know where you find yours. Most everyone has no passion. They live and die and are content with being slobs the whole way through. Only special people do. Only those people are able to try to overcome hardship.

Lesson Eighteen – Thugs

Thugs are obvious. They look like crap because they drink and do drugs all day every day and they are wearing socks and flip flops. Odds are they only feel like victimizing crack heads and whatever other people that don’t fight back. They will however try you if they’re drunk and in a group.

They almost ALWAYS have guns on them. If there’s a group there’s literally a 100% chance that one of them has a gun. Its going to be a cheap old 1911 or glock or something but it will probably work and can obviously kill you.

What it comes down to is how much they want from you and their current mood. They’re always looking for an excuse to justify their actions to themselves. They will call you a name or threaten you or someone you know and expect you to say something back. They’ll take your response as a disrespect and then their actions thereafter are “defending their honor” from your disrespect. If there’s a group the rest will jump in and jump you when the leader does. They wont kill you though. They just want to beat you and steal whatever you have.

There’s a ton of possible outcomes. If you say nothing odds are they’ll just disrespect you and let you keep going. That’s not really an option because they’re going to victimize you literally every time they see you after that. They might see that as an invite to robbing you right there because you aren’t going to put up a fight.

You can fight back, if you knock out the alpha one of two things will happen. Either everyone will laugh and cheer and think you’re the greatest thing ever or they’re going to try to jump or shoot you. Either way the alpha will need to regain his dignity and will come back and try to kill you at a later date. If you lose the fight they’re all going to jump you and steal whatever you have on you no matter how worthless.

You can run. They won’t chase you. If they do that’s the perfect time to shoot them. The best course of action would be to run. Make it around a corner and take a defensive position. The first one that comes around the corner light him up with a few center mass shots and he’s literally going to jump out of his shoes like a deer that’s been shot and then go crashing to the ground. Unarmed pursuers will run. They’ll scatter like roaches. Armed pursuers are going to take the opportunity to shoot at you. After you fire the first few shots you’ll want to move again. Keep the same strategy its almost impossible to attack a defensive position without flanking it. So keep conscious of being flanked and their straight on attacks will be met with high losses every time. By defensive position I mean a spot that’s not visible until it’s too late for them. Hidden enough. You should be an incredibly small target behind cover.

If running isn’t an option i.e. they would run much faster than you standing your ground is the only real option. Not provoking further action by insulting or threatening back and continuing to move but not taking your eye off your attackers. Then you simply shoot the ones that don’t run like the wind when it comes to that. If they’re still there when that pop is heard they’re armed and overly confident.

The wonderful thing about street thugs is their lack of combat experience and knowledge. They have no idea how to be defensive. They are all offense. Their defense is in numbers. But you will be able to get them alone plenty. In your neighborhood if there are specific people who are seeking trouble with you you cant just live and let live. You have to get rid of them somehow. Tons of options for this. The easiest options are within the confides of the law. Telling the police where he keeps drugs and guns. They like to raid drug dealers. If he’s too small time for that the next best option is erasure. Their existence is so inconsequential if he disappeared off the face of the planet no one, odds are, would even file a missing person. So many tools, so many options, so many ways to do this that its actually easy. You just have to pick whats most practical. Also leave no links to you. Don’t ask around about the person. Be a total stranger and as much as a suspect as a leaf on a tree.

Lesson Thirteen – Trust

Be mean to people. No one is allowed to borrow anything. Everyone should know that your shit is yours and they risk everything to make it theirs. This isn’t the suburbs. Your neighbor borrowing something really means you giving it to them. Odds are they aren’t even your neighbor they’re just knocking on random doors. Years ago in the old west if you stole anything a band of vigilantes would come and shoot you and then hang you. Your property is everything in harsh environments. They know that. They don’t respect you asking for your stuff. That’s their first mistake.

You’re going to have property stolen. That’s a fact of life. You’re going to leave something somewhere and come back minutes later and it be gone. These people are like seagulls looking for a piece of bread. They’ll hang where you can’t see them and swoop down and be gone in an instant when you turn your back. That’s a fact of life in the ghetto. Anything not bolted down and protected by the business end of a firearm can and will be stolen. You’re going to want to use your neighbors children as clay pigeons because they steal from you but your only real course of action is to let it go. If they’re trying to rob you, i.e. steal from your person, in most states you have the right to defend yourself.

Girls will ask you for drugs after acting like they like you and want to get to know you. Or money. They don’t give a fuck about you. Opiate addicts care about one thing. All drug addicts care about one thing. And unless you are their drug of choice that one thing is not you. Don’t get fooled. You’re never getting borrowed money back. And that’s fine. Don’t give them money. And if you feel like being merciful today and do want to give them something don’t give them enough to make it worth their while to come back. 1-4 dollars. 5 is enough for them to come back. And try to do it in quarters. Something a drug dealer doesn’t want. Helpful but not helpful is your mantra when helping people.

Never ever let someone in a position of power over you. Never let someone in your car or house unless they’re close and you trust them totally. Never give a stranger a ride. He’s going to knife you and steal your car. He doesn’t care about getting far. Always assume everyone is going to try to kill you and steal your shit and get away with it.  You need to always be in the position of power.

Don’t trust anyone. DTA. Live by it. Say it to yourself every time someone wants anything from you. DTA, DTA, DTA, DTA.

Lesson Twelve – Great Role Models

Aaron Hernandez. He’s a great role model. There are a ton of great role models like him too. Prison is full of them. They didn’t take shit and they killed without any regards to the consequences. They didn’t let people disrespect them and those people are dead. I’m being sarcastic. They are great role models but role models of what not to be like. Sometimes you have to see people fail at things to know how to win. The human mind is pretty powerful at foresight and visualization. If you can see yourself following the paths of someone that failed you know how not to be. And that’s a start in a world where success is so shrouded with mystery by those who don’t have it.

You can deduct that not acting like Aaron Hernandez is a great way to stay out of prison. While he managed to get into the NFL he blew it. He lost more and at a very young age than most everyone could ever gain. Why? He took the wrong path. The path of offense. The path of ignorance. He followed every modern gangster’s mantra and he did so very well. He lost everything because of it. He didn’t know how to have humility. Someone spilled a drink on him and it turned into a double homicide. Someone else knew of the double homicide and it turned into triple homicide. That then turned into dying in a prison. And being buried in a prison graveyard. He couldn’t keep his eye on the prize he was too proud and too well into the mantra’s of hood rats.

There are no real role models that come out of the ghetto. It’s a very somber realization. It’s a slow violin playing in the background. It’s sad. No one that grows up or lives in this environment ever becomes someone you want to be. They always have that stigma and that fear and hate and tactical mind. They can never relax and be someone else. They can never be someone that had plenty and lived in beautiful places with well adjusted people and nothing but opportunity. They might currently live in the land of plenty. But there will always be that part of them. It’s like taking a tiger out of the jungle. The jungle will never leave him. A veteran out of war. The war is still there.

You can’t look to anyone who rose above. Not me or anyone. Not any athlete or any CEO or any successful person that came from nothing but pain and hate. You can never look to someone that learned how to feel invincible because they had absolutely nothing to lose. Someone that craved death because it was a release from the shit. You have to look to people who never had to live that life. Because they’re the goal. And not so much for you but your kids. And the future generations of people that walk this earth. No one should have to go through all the things we have. No one deserves it. We all come into this world innocent of everything. Totally ready to be shaped to our world. And no one deserves to be treated so poorly and have so little in a world that offers so little opportunity.

We learned how to be invincible and we learned how to be cold to everything and become capable of any horrors. For some reason once you have that you know you can never let it go. It’s impossible to let go…just in case you ever need it again. It would be nice to live in a world where no one has to have that. But you can’t look to people who have that. You have to look to people who don’t. They might seem weak or ignorant but their quality of life is so much better than ours. Ignorance is bliss.

Lesson Eleven – Credit

It’s very easy to get some credit in this country. If you have a job and a decent or empty credit history you can get some credit. Which is great. Its important to be able to have some money that simply isn’t yours that you can use in emergencies. Wealthy people have awesome credit cards and awesome credit rates. Credit companies basically pay them to use their credit cards. The reason is the desire for their business vs. the competition. They have to offer great deals and offer high credit lines and incredibly low interest rates. They will profit off the wealthy person, albeit not a ton, but they’ll make some money in the end.

Most Americans get terrible rates on credit cards. Because most Americans owe on credit cards. They cant pay them off, and when they do they typically owe money again almost immediately after. Credit companies make a ton of money off the average Joe. They don’t offer great deals they offer decent deals and at best a crappy interest.

You get the absolute worst deals. You get absolutely no incentives and very high interest rates. This should deter low income people from ever using credit.  The problem being is that most low income people don’t make enough money to survive. We rely on unreliable income and even get that in small amounts. If we want to buy our kids birthday presents or take them to Chuck E Cheese or whatever we typically have to put that on credit. Really anything not food and rent goes to credit. And we can never pay it off because we’re never making more money. Either the same money or less. Credit card companies LOVE this. They make so much money in the end. We pay more interest by a huge margin than money borrowed by the ends of our lives. Its a scam. And it helps keep the rich rich and the poor poor.

Again this goes to the entire mantra of staying alive in the ghetto. You, being an American, think, “Something should be done about that.” Yea absolutely. It’s hurting a ton of people and contributes to a below par lifestyle for a ton of people. But there are no champions of the poor. Poor people don’t vote. Even if they did no presidential nominee would ever combat real issues in this country. They make up issues like gay marriage that have no real intrinsic bearing on anything and use vague words like “Hope” to not tackle this stuff.

The only way to survive the ghetto is the same way you survive the desert. You accept that you are not in control of the environment and have absolutely no bearing in “the way things should be.” You just have to stick to your goals of staying fed and hydrated and getting the hell out of there. Learn humility, learn how things work, and make critical decisions. Don’t waste a minute or a dollar trying to change things. Don’t forget why you live in the ghetto in the first place. You have no value therefor your voice and opinion has no value. Accept it, own it, move on.

Lesson Ten – The Police

Police are not your friend. Never ever call them or have anything to do with them unless absolutely necessary. The only viable situation in which to call police is to prevent the death or kidnapping of you or someone you care about. If they are already dead or kidnapped, the police are no longer of value. That’s IT. Your involvement with the police ENDS THERE. NO EXCEPTIONS. Do not call the police for petty crimes. Do not report crimes unless you can do so absolutely and totally anonymously. And only in situations in which the police can catch people in the act and don’t need your testimony.

A man who fights dragons too much eventually becomes a dragon. A man who stares into the abyss long enough eventually becomes the abyss. No that’s not my original quote its Neitzsche. A cop who fights criminals for long enough becomes a criminal. A cop who stares into the evils of the world for long enough eventually becomes the evils of the world. Cops deal with the worst people day in an day out. Drug abusers, thieves, psychotically violent people, child abusers, and people who break traffic laws and don’t care and people who live off law breaking, etc. They deal with angry drunks and people with a non functional level of intelligence…just everyone. That crap rubs off on them.

Cops also have unchecked power. Only recently have cops started being charged with things like murder and manslaughter. And that’s only because they’ve been so abusive and terroristic that people want cameras put on them. And people know you can film an arrest and get a good viral video because after the cops put someone in handcuffs they’re going to tase and kick and punch the person. Its just what they do, its so consistent that they’ll break the law you can catch them easy. They make the news constantly all over the country with viral videos of them beating and shooting and abusing the living shit out of people. They do it so much that people expect it. Which is by definition terrorism.

Cops don’t care. They just don’t. They don’t give a fuck about you or your situation or anything. If they pull you over for a traffic violation killing you crosses their minds many times. They are very weary of people who pull guns on them or get violent. They expect it in every situation. That mindset of kill or be killed weighs on them big time. Eventually they will kill someone. And not totally unjustified. The people they kill are usually total scumbags. But they don’t often do it in self defense. They love to take out that frustration and anger and stress on people. In their minds the people deserve it. And typically they do. But deserving something and upholding laws conflict and the laws should always win. But they don’t. And just because the cop is dealing with you they typically assume that you’re the same scumbag that they always have to deal with. Even if you aren’t.

Not all cops are bad. Some genuinely care about their communities and don’t want to help contribute to a society of violence. But the road to hell is paved with good intentions. Even the good ones are humans with guns and power and a job that makes them immune to the law in a huge amount of situations. Cops came to my door with guns drawn and when I opened the door they pulled me out with a gun literally in my face and arrested me. They then went through my house and seized my property. Cops can do this. If they have a warrant. These cops didn’t. To the rest of us that’s aggravated assault, kidnapping, armed robbery and a breaking and entering. There was no way on earth a judge would have granted them a warrant based on the ramblings of a schizophrenic person. So they took it upon themselves.  And that’s cops. And that’s why you avoid them.

There’s no way you can win against cops. If they want you for anything there’s no getting away or convincing them that you’re not guilty or anything. The only thing you should ever say to an officer is “I plead the fifth”. Officers want your blood. And you’re giving it to them when you talk about situations. If you’re just getting a ticket you keep your hands on the wheel and say “Yes, sir” when he tells you you’re either getting a ticket or a warning. Never be condescending, never argue, never do anything. They are looking for an excuse. I’ve had a cop harass me for maybe 15 minutes, Im absolutely sure he wanted to see if he could piss me off and either shoot me or charge me with more crimes than an expired plate. He was very clearly fishing for more. An expired plate is nothing. In the great scheme of things it hurts no one, it does nothing, its just a fee that hasn’t been paid. Something like a ticket is the only reasonable response to something like an unpaid fee. To be screamed at and harassed and threatened is not reasonable. But…this is the police.

They are always looking for more. Petty crimes are petty crimes. They want someone to shoot. Someone to hit. Someone to drive their knee into while they are on the ground. They want that release. It makes them violent and dangerous and criminals. Like I said though there’s no way you can win against them. There are more of them than you. They have the best lawyers. The get an insane amount of preferential treatment by judges and jurors. No matter what you do they will always be human. They will always have to deal with horrible people and they will always become horrible people themselves. Avoiding them is the only successful strategy.