Lesson Twenty One – Dealing With Success

If you manage to make it out of the ghetto, get a good job, find a sugar momma, get some inheritance, or whatever. If you manage to get out its a different world. People who aren’t dying for necessities have an ENTIRELY different set of beliefs, concerns, and perception.

Its like leaving Nazi ruled Europe after defeating Hitler and winning World War 2. And then when you get home there is no war. And furthermore people will never understand what they had to deal with. People just put it out of their minds and try to think about the nice things. They don’t want to relive your horrors when you talk about it. It’s almost as if people act like their never was a war.

People who haven’t lived in hyper violent societies will never understand them. They’ve never had to deal with that. They will think you exaggerate because they can’t fathom that life can be so bad. Their world is cushy and nice and the bad things while bad don’t fall in the same spectrum.

People have to endure all sorts of different things. And someone who has always lived in a nice community with people who don’t suffer and cops that don’t abuse will always have trouble understanding the world we lived in. They don’t know what a crackhead is in real life. They don’t know that someone can get their head bashed in for a bottle of beer that a drunk really wanted. That seems unreasonable to them and therefor impossible.

This is why the problems of the world will always persist. If everyone lived in the same environment we would all work together to make it better. The way it works in the real world though is that different people live in different environments. Its all split up by wealth, race, nation, etc. People on the bottom who suffer won’t ever have that bottom tier of human life “fixed”. It will always be shit. Because the people stuck in it get lost in it. They don’t have the means to change it. And the people who live above it don’t understand it and don’t make it a priority. It’s not something that affects them directly enough.

The most you can hope for is to join a higher tier of society. And you’re going to have to learn to not be so violent. You’re going to have to learn that the world is a different place even though its still earth. You can live ten blocks away from where people are hungry and dying of drug withdrawal and have educated beautiful friends, plenty of food, and a good life. The world is strange like that. But the ultimate goal is to get out of the shit. And then your next goal is dealing with that.

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Lesson nineteen – Worthlessness

Being poor you are the disenfranchised. And it’s not just your income that makes you this way. It’s the place you live in, the people you live with, and everything about your situation in life. Rich people are incredibly important. Their lives and deaths affect the world around them. They do you can’t deny it. They have people working for them and people they’re stealing from, and a huge web of interaction with the world around them. You don’t. You have some debt that you owe creditors.

Poor people contribute nothing to society. Sometimes athletes and the intelligent ones (if they’re not killed by an oppressive culture of destroying threats) will rise above and leave. But then of course they’ve left. No one in poor communities contributes anything to anything. If you die someone else just takes your job and is miserable in it for little pay just like you were.

Because of this logical evaluation of people’s worth and the poor being of no value the poor consider themselves and each other to have no value. People can run around in the streets shooting the crap out of each other over minor insults and small sums of money and no one really cares. The killers don’t care, the dead don’t care, the bystanders don’t care. Everyone is just forgotten.

Put yourself in the place of a wealthy young man in a wealthy neighborhood with the mindset of a street thug. He sits on the side of the street in front of a friends house with a, lets say expensive because hes rich, gun on top of the wheel of his car selling…I guess pain killers and psych meds. They’re expensive. That’s not really logical. Why would he undertake so much risk to make relatively small amounts of money. Coming from a wealthy family in a wealthy neighborhood he literally stands to make as much money as his talent and imagination and hard work will make him. If he tried, he’d make good money. If he didn’t try he’d probably get by just fine.

The rest of us, the poor people, see people on the sidewalk selling drugs. Gun nearby, making small amounts of cash, taking a HUGE risk of their personal safety and freedom from jail or prison. You see it everywhere. And it’s not because it pays so well. It pays crap. And it always results in being robbed, shot, killed, put in prison, etc. But in reality that risk is mitigated by their world. They actually don’t have much to lose. Being robbed just means you start back where you did at the beginning of the day. Being killed changes nothing. Being put in prison is no lesser a quality of life.

It’s easy to accept that you’re a loser in a loser world and it will never change. You know you’re a loser and everyone else does but they’re losers too. And then go out and do anything because you have nothing to lose. You can’t be qualitatively more of a loser. A loser is a loser. You cant be a huge loser or a little bit of a loser. You either get what you want and have a good quality of life or you struggle and then die.

In the natural world everything is a loser. Everything gets killed or eaten or dies young. It’s only us humans that have some people who rise above that. In the natural world the apex predators still attack and destroy each other. Humans do too. But they don’t use claws and teeth they try to get more wealth. Which typically doesn’t destroy your peers. It just sets them back a minute while they rob someone else.

There is no getting out of being a loser without hard work. Even with it you probably will fail.

Lesson Seventeen – He’s walking his cat on a leash. That’s child abuse.

People in the ghetto aren’t inherently stupid. Actually I’m not really sure what I mean by that. They are stupid. They wouldn’t be there forever if they were smart. The people you’re surrounded by are loooooow bred. They typically have no cares about mating with proper humans and it just perpetuates their borderline retardation. Then to add on top of that they drink a ton and do a lot of drugs and usually often from a very early age, preteen typically, which totally ruins their brain development in and of itself. Living in a poor stressful environment and going to shitty schools has plenty of negative effects on brain development without very early drug abuse.

Perfect example and will make sense of the title. I was walking my dog. A cocker spaniel. Very clearly a dog. And a group of youths walked past. I’d say around 14, white, somewhat gothic but gothic has sort of just turned to trashy and ghetto in modern times. One girl, very clearly on drugs, probably alcohol and marijuana says to her friends in shock but in a subdued Thorazine like state that “He’s walking his cat on a leash. That’s child abuse.” Her friends ignore it. And she says again angrily, “That’s child abuse.”

Now you cant get more unintelligent than that. She’s basically smart enough to understand that dogs are supposed to be on leashes not cats and a loosely based concept of abuse. Abuse wouldn’t extend to walking a cat on a leash. Some cats actually like it. Otherwise they’re not going to let you walk them at all. But she isn’t smart enough to understand the difference between a cocker spaniel and a cat. She also isn’t lucid enough to understand the difference between a pet and a human. She also isn’t lucid enough to understand that she’s projecting her feelings of being abused, which hopefully she was, and I mean that in the worst way, onto my dogcat Mosey the cocker spaniel.

The worst of her problems is that she’s abusing drugs and being in public at a very young age. Im sure if she wasn’t already pregnant some meth addicted sex offender did the deed while she was still young. She basically has no chance. And while cute and somewhat healthy at 14 she’ll look 40 when she’s 20 and be dead by 25. Thankfully the universe does have some counter measures to her type.

Lesson Twelve – Great Role Models

Aaron Hernandez. He’s a great role model. There are a ton of great role models like him too. Prison is full of them. They didn’t take shit and they killed without any regards to the consequences. They didn’t let people disrespect them and those people are dead. I’m being sarcastic. They are great role models but role models of what not to be like. Sometimes you have to see people fail at things to know how to win. The human mind is pretty powerful at foresight and visualization. If you can see yourself following the paths of someone that failed you know how not to be. And that’s a start in a world where success is so shrouded with mystery by those who don’t have it.

You can deduct that not acting like Aaron Hernandez is a great way to stay out of prison. While he managed to get into the NFL he blew it. He lost more and at a very young age than most everyone could ever gain. Why? He took the wrong path. The path of offense. The path of ignorance. He followed every modern gangster’s mantra and he did so very well. He lost everything because of it. He didn’t know how to have humility. Someone spilled a drink on him and it turned into a double homicide. Someone else knew of the double homicide and it turned into triple homicide. That then turned into dying in a prison. And being buried in a prison graveyard. He couldn’t keep his eye on the prize he was too proud and too well into the mantra’s of hood rats.

There are no real role models that come out of the ghetto. It’s a very somber realization. It’s a slow violin playing in the background. It’s sad. No one that grows up or lives in this environment ever becomes someone you want to be. They always have that stigma and that fear and hate and tactical mind. They can never relax and be someone else. They can never be someone that had plenty and lived in beautiful places with well adjusted people and nothing but opportunity. They might currently live in the land of plenty. But there will always be that part of them. It’s like taking a tiger out of the jungle. The jungle will never leave him. A veteran out of war. The war is still there.

You can’t look to anyone who rose above. Not me or anyone. Not any athlete or any CEO or any successful person that came from nothing but pain and hate. You can never look to someone that learned how to feel invincible because they had absolutely nothing to lose. Someone that craved death because it was a release from the shit. You have to look to people who never had to live that life. Because they’re the goal. And not so much for you but your kids. And the future generations of people that walk this earth. No one should have to go through all the things we have. No one deserves it. We all come into this world innocent of everything. Totally ready to be shaped to our world. And no one deserves to be treated so poorly and have so little in a world that offers so little opportunity.

We learned how to be invincible and we learned how to be cold to everything and become capable of any horrors. For some reason once you have that you know you can never let it go. It’s impossible to let go…just in case you ever need it again. It would be nice to live in a world where no one has to have that. But you can’t look to people who have that. You have to look to people who don’t. They might seem weak or ignorant but their quality of life is so much better than ours. Ignorance is bliss.

Lesson Eleven – Credit

It’s very easy to get some credit in this country. If you have a job and a decent or empty credit history you can get some credit. Which is great. Its important to be able to have some money that simply isn’t yours that you can use in emergencies. Wealthy people have awesome credit cards and awesome credit rates. Credit companies basically pay them to use their credit cards. The reason is the desire for their business vs. the competition. They have to offer great deals and offer high credit lines and incredibly low interest rates. They will profit off the wealthy person, albeit not a ton, but they’ll make some money in the end.

Most Americans get terrible rates on credit cards. Because most Americans owe on credit cards. They cant pay them off, and when they do they typically owe money again almost immediately after. Credit companies make a ton of money off the average Joe. They don’t offer great deals they offer decent deals and at best a crappy interest.

You get the absolute worst deals. You get absolutely no incentives and very high interest rates. This should deter low income people from ever using credit.  The problem being is that most low income people don’t make enough money to survive. We rely on unreliable income and even get that in small amounts. If we want to buy our kids birthday presents or take them to Chuck E Cheese or whatever we typically have to put that on credit. Really anything not food and rent goes to credit. And we can never pay it off because we’re never making more money. Either the same money or less. Credit card companies LOVE this. They make so much money in the end. We pay more interest by a huge margin than money borrowed by the ends of our lives. Its a scam. And it helps keep the rich rich and the poor poor.

Again this goes to the entire mantra of staying alive in the ghetto. You, being an American, think, “Something should be done about that.” Yea absolutely. It’s hurting a ton of people and contributes to a below par lifestyle for a ton of people. But there are no champions of the poor. Poor people don’t vote. Even if they did no presidential nominee would ever combat real issues in this country. They make up issues like gay marriage that have no real intrinsic bearing on anything and use vague words like “Hope” to not tackle this stuff.

The only way to survive the ghetto is the same way you survive the desert. You accept that you are not in control of the environment and have absolutely no bearing in “the way things should be.” You just have to stick to your goals of staying fed and hydrated and getting the hell out of there. Learn humility, learn how things work, and make critical decisions. Don’t waste a minute or a dollar trying to change things. Don’t forget why you live in the ghetto in the first place. You have no value therefor your voice and opinion has no value. Accept it, own it, move on.

Lesson Ten – The Police

Police are not your friend. Never ever call them or have anything to do with them unless absolutely necessary. The only viable situation in which to call police is to prevent the death or kidnapping of you or someone you care about. If they are already dead or kidnapped, the police are no longer of value. That’s IT. Your involvement with the police ENDS THERE. NO EXCEPTIONS. Do not call the police for petty crimes. Do not report crimes unless you can do so absolutely and totally anonymously. And only in situations in which the police can catch people in the act and don’t need your testimony.

A man who fights dragons too much eventually becomes a dragon. A man who stares into the abyss long enough eventually becomes the abyss. No that’s not my original quote its Neitzsche. A cop who fights criminals for long enough becomes a criminal. A cop who stares into the evils of the world for long enough eventually becomes the evils of the world. Cops deal with the worst people day in an day out. Drug abusers, thieves, psychotically violent people, child abusers, and people who break traffic laws and don’t care and people who live off law breaking, etc. They deal with angry drunks and people with a non functional level of intelligence…just everyone. That crap rubs off on them.

Cops also have unchecked power. Only recently have cops started being charged with things like murder and manslaughter. And that’s only because they’ve been so abusive and terroristic that people want cameras put on them. And people know you can film an arrest and get a good viral video because after the cops put someone in handcuffs they’re going to tase and kick and punch the person. Its just what they do, its so consistent that they’ll break the law you can catch them easy. They make the news constantly all over the country with viral videos of them beating and shooting and abusing the living shit out of people. They do it so much that people expect it. Which is by definition terrorism.

Cops don’t care. They just don’t. They don’t give a fuck about you or your situation or anything. If they pull you over for a traffic violation killing you crosses their minds many times. They are very weary of people who pull guns on them or get violent. They expect it in every situation. That mindset of kill or be killed weighs on them big time. Eventually they will kill someone. And not totally unjustified. The people they kill are usually total scumbags. But they don’t often do it in self defense. They love to take out that frustration and anger and stress on people. In their minds the people deserve it. And typically they do. But deserving something and upholding laws conflict and the laws should always win. But they don’t. And just because the cop is dealing with you they typically assume that you’re the same scumbag that they always have to deal with. Even if you aren’t.

Not all cops are bad. Some genuinely care about their communities and don’t want to help contribute to a society of violence. But the road to hell is paved with good intentions. Even the good ones are humans with guns and power and a job that makes them immune to the law in a huge amount of situations. Cops came to my door with guns drawn and when I opened the door they pulled me out with a gun literally in my face and arrested me. They then went through my house and seized my property. Cops can do this. If they have a warrant. These cops didn’t. To the rest of us that’s aggravated assault, kidnapping, armed robbery and a breaking and entering. There was no way on earth a judge would have granted them a warrant based on the ramblings of a schizophrenic person. So they took it upon themselves.  And that’s cops. And that’s why you avoid them.

There’s no way you can win against cops. If they want you for anything there’s no getting away or convincing them that you’re not guilty or anything. The only thing you should ever say to an officer is “I plead the fifth”. Officers want your blood. And you’re giving it to them when you talk about situations. If you’re just getting a ticket you keep your hands on the wheel and say “Yes, sir” when he tells you you’re either getting a ticket or a warning. Never be condescending, never argue, never do anything. They are looking for an excuse. I’ve had a cop harass me for maybe 15 minutes, Im absolutely sure he wanted to see if he could piss me off and either shoot me or charge me with more crimes than an expired plate. He was very clearly fishing for more. An expired plate is nothing. In the great scheme of things it hurts no one, it does nothing, its just a fee that hasn’t been paid. Something like a ticket is the only reasonable response to something like an unpaid fee. To be screamed at and harassed and threatened is not reasonable. But…this is the police.

They are always looking for more. Petty crimes are petty crimes. They want someone to shoot. Someone to hit. Someone to drive their knee into while they are on the ground. They want that release. It makes them violent and dangerous and criminals. Like I said though there’s no way you can win against them. There are more of them than you. They have the best lawyers. The get an insane amount of preferential treatment by judges and jurors. No matter what you do they will always be human. They will always have to deal with horrible people and they will always become horrible people themselves. Avoiding them is the only successful strategy.

Lesson Nine – Ghetto Exhaustion

If you’re just visiting the ghetto then you might not experience this. But if you live there you will. Living in a shitty high crime poverty stricken community is stressful. It takes it’s toll. It turns you into something else. It has a lot of effects on you as a whole. The highest would be fear, second would maybe be hunger. Or maybe the other way around. I don’t really know. It depends on you and the situation.

In order to not feel so exhausted sometimes you need to find somewhere else to spend your time. Typically you can’t afford to go to Italy and summer there so you have to stay in the ghetto and get your vacation. The easiest way is segregation. No not separating races. But separating yourself from the world around you. Staying indoors. Staying at a friends house. Getting lost in video games or a book. Staying at your girlfriends place. Pack your shit up and go over there.

My way was video games. Eventually they too become exhausting because you’re so hungry and broke and you spend a lot of time sleeping but at least I didn’t care about the world outside. Girls will do it too. Stay at their houses. Girl’s often travel to stay with boyfriends but if they live in a nice area and you live in the hood maybe you should go over there. Bring your dog, spend the night. Get away from it.

Sometimes the weight of the world will be too much for you to bare. Probably actually a lot in life. And you want to do crazy things to get it off. Like kill or be killed. Rob and steal and lash out at the world around you. Make it big or die. I think it was 50 Cent who had the song about getting rich or die trying. You better believe that stuck in the hood. Life is barely worth living. Lots of days it simply isn’t. You’re going to feel like you have nothing to lose a lot. That you can only go up. That any action no matter how absurd or violent or risky only stands to benefit you. Let those feelings subside. Make bigger goals. It’s better to be broke and free than rich and in prison.